I really don't know how... o-[ T_T ]-o

Today I'm not feeling happy...This morning, I went to tuition...
When in the class, I can't listen properly what teacher teached...
Actually I can tell is... I had been in class and listen, but I can't remember it... @_@
I... I feel like something bad to me... And it will happen very very soon...
11 something... After tuition, I went back home...
And YanYan called to me... That time I feel so surprise...
Cause actually she is a busy bee... Less call to me... I hanged up...
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C: Me Y: YanYan
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Y: Hello... Is it Crystal?
C: Hello... Is it Yan? Yeah... It's me... Anything?
Y: Owh Yeah... This Sunday, we are going to Mid Valley, you can't join?
C: Yeah... I can't...
Y: Why?
C: My parents don't allow me...
Y: Owh... Before many times I can't join you all... But this time my parents allow me...
C: Haiz~ But this time is my turn... They don't allow me...
Y: Huh~ Really can't see you?
C: Erm... Yeah... So sorry... Next time hope we can...
Y: Okay lo... Next time...
C: Okay... Bye...
Y: Bye...
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Actually... I really miss her a lot... Everything we go for gathering, she sure won't appear...
Cause her parents won't allow her... But this time is my turn to can't appear... :(

Until 6 something... KuanKuan called me...
Also asked me about this gathering
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C: Me K: KuanKuan
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ OUR CHAT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
K: Hello... Is it Crystal?
C: Hello... KuanKuan right?
K: Yeah... Wanna ask you, really can't go gathering with us?
C: Yeah... So sorry...
K: Huh~ Do you know that...
(she not yet finish I cut off her words)
C: Yeah... I know, Audrey, You, JiaYi, ChooiChooi, Vivian and YanYan also joining right?
K: Yeah...
C: Haiz~ I hope I can join with you all...
(my voice... cause I'm actually going to cry... out of control)
K: Are you crying?
C: Nope... I am okay...
K: Then okay la... Bye...
C: En... Bye...
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I really out of control... Cried... I am so sad and upset because I'm not going with them...
I seriously miss YanYan and JiaYi a lot... But what else I can do? I don't know... :(